On Thursdays, my day at GV, I do a question of the week. I come up with an open ended question (what is your favorite food? What sports did you play? If you were dressing up for Halloween what would your costume be? etc). I ask people in the activities area, in the hallways, and then try to visit all the tables at lunch. In the afternoon I present the results; the most common answers, and silliest answers, the weirdest answers, unexpected answers, whatever seems interesting that week.
So, yesterday, being exhausted and in a bad mood, I decided that rather than going through all the tables, I would stop early and eat my own lunch. My supervisor even gave me permission (and does, weekly). It didn't work. I had to get to every table. I had to get as many answers as possible. I had to have good results to share. I couldn't do a bad job.
I must be doing a good job as a performer, too, because my schedule for December is jam packed. Some, due to the time of year, also because of a good marketing initiative back in the fall, and some because people hear me once and usually ask me back again. And now, I have so much scheduled, that I am turning work down. This is supposed to be exciting for any self employed person - more work then you can handle! That's when you start a small business and then you can really start turning a profit. But, I'm just in agony here. I really like what I do, I hate saying no to people. I don't want to burn bridges. More so, I just want to do everything.
So, I don't know what to do. And I realize that being in agony because my work is so successful is ridiculous. I'm just having an unexpectedly hard time turning in around and seeing it as success, and not failure. And I suppose that's the real problem right there - I see a "yes" answer as success, and a "no" answer as failure.
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