It's just that I deserve this. I deserve something I want, something I desire. I'm not asking for a perfect spouse, or a perfect house, or a perfect job, or to be stay at home mom with lots of little perfect children, like all the other girls. I just want an iPhone. If other girls can ask for all those big life things, and get them, then why can't I get just an iPhone? It's just not a lot of ask. It's especially not a lot to ask since I already paid for it.
I'm just so tired of endless waiting for anything I ever want (Recall how I spent months trying to buy a house I never owned). It's always a huge, long struggle. I know that it would not suit my personality if everything in life was just handed to me, and so I am happy that I can have satisfaction knowing that I worked hard, persevered, and got something for it. Doesn't mean I don't hate the waiting, though. Sometimes I feel like I'm just going to crawl out of my skin, it's so hard.
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